7-12-11

it is been awhile i dint write anything here...

and its about time....

but..

have you have that thought? the thought you want to tell everything...

but end up writing..non!

hmm..that exactly happening to me rite now!

Hahaha!

apa tok? pengajaran dari mu tuk diriku?

waahhh...tajuk nak gempaqqq ahahahaha ..

its been awhile i didn't write anything here..

ok, aku masuk fasa baru dalam hidup aku. semua nya masih baru. environment, duties, kawan kawan, semua nya masih baru. dan aku masih dalam adjustment mode. tapi bukan itu yang aku nak luahkan di sini. aku rasa aku tak patut luahkan disini, tapi aku tak tahu nak cerita kepada siapa, jadi aku pilih cerita kepada semua berharap you akan tahu dis one is for you.

bangun bangun tido aku trus baca semua text selama seminggu ni..aku jadi tension. stress. and depressed. aku tak salahkan kau. aku tahu, aku ada salah nya di situ. dan aku tak kata kau salah sebab kau ada betulnya. dan tak semua kau betul, aku rasa kau ada salahnya.

pada mulanya aku rasa aku betul. sumpah. aku betul. aku rasa diri aku betul. then hari ini, setelah aku muhasabah diri. setelah penat mataku mengeluarkan air mata. setelah penat aku memerah otak fikirkan kenapa. aku sedar. rupanya aku banyak salah dari betul.

kau betul. semua yang kau katakan aku berlagak. sombong. bajet pandai. aku rasa kau betul. sebab kau org yang paling hampir dengn aku. kau yang 24 jam bersama aku. sumpah aku tak percaya bila kau tuduh aku macam itu. sebab kawan kawan aku semua kata aku macam biasa. cuma makin menyusahkan mereka ada lah, btol x missgolong? hehe.

selepas aku baca balik semua text selama seminggu tu..baru aku prasan, mana salah dan silap ku. paling aku kecewa ialah aku tak ambik serius pun dalam hal yang kau tengah menegur sebab aku, aku binggung dengan dunia baru ku yang memerlukan banyak benda tuk belajar. aku stress. tapi kau lah tempat aku mengadu. tempat aku bermanja. tempat aku release stress. dan aku tau kau tak suka dilayan sebegitu.

it is my fault. aku mintak maaf dari hujung rambut sampai hujung kaki. aku ambik perkara ini mudah. samapai lah kau mintak space. baru aku tersedar, bahawa perkara sudah teruk lagi bernanah. aku hanya mampu mohon keampunan.. dari kau.. dan aku mengucapkan terima kasih, kerana menyedarkan aku terlebih awal dari biasa.. thank you.

aku manusia biasa. aku buat silap. dulu masa persekolahan, kita di belajar pengajaran tuk menduduki ujian. tapi dalam kehidupan, kita diberi ujian untuk belajar pengajaran. ini pengajaranku. aku harap, aku tidak dihukum dengan kesalahan yang lain.

saya minta maaf wak..

changes

i am in boring mode.

i mean, rite now, i'm super duper boring.

i need some changes. new things. new thrill.

i need to feel the rush.

changes is good people.

i need to make a drastic step.

any suggestion?

baru sebulan

baru sepuluh hari berpuasa. alhamdulillah.

baru sebulan dengan loan department. kehangatan kebosanan kehidupan sudah mula terasa.

selamat berpuasa! :D

life changing

dulu, aku bawa slide pergi kelas. sometime bawak buku. sometime x bawa apa apa

sekarang, aku bawa pen pergi office.

dulu, duit pt tuk aku seorang

sekarang, duit gaji, banyak benda yang perlu di bayar

dulu, bapak aku bagi wang saku

sekarang, aku cari wang saku aku sendiri

dulu, aku selalu makan maggie

sekarang, aku makan masakan emak aku.... ye adik ku jeles. hahaha.

dulu, selalu spent time dengan kawan kawan

sekarang, masing masing ada kehidupan masing masing

dulu, aku seorang pelajar

sekarang, aku seorang perkerja

tapi

tapi

bila aku jadi graduan??

life doing mistakes mean everything rather than life doing nothings.

aku pernah berkata sebelum ini kalau kau pakai baju baru tapi kau simpan dengan baju baju lama yang dah berbau hapak, baju baru ka akan bau hapak juga.

sama macam kehidupan kita. jika kawan kawan kau seorang yang positif, kau pun akan positif.

im in pain. yeah. tp aku sedaya upaya untuk tersenyum. tiada siapa yang akan tolong diri kau melainkan kau sendiri.

lidah manusia setajam pisau. boleh membunuh. hanya diri kau boleh survive dengan kat kata setajam pisau atau menangkis nya.

apa yang sudah dilafazkan xkan kembali lagi. sepertimana kau melukakan hati orang lain sama la seperti kau pakukan paku didinding. Bila kau minta maaf, umpama kau cabut paku itu, dan, bekas nya tetap di situ. remain forever.

peluang kedua.peluang ketiga. banyak yang tak berjaya lakukan dengan lebih baik, sebab, mereka tak tahu bagaimana. and so am i.

banyak benda yang bermain di kotak minda aku sekarang. aku meminta pertolongan dari-Nya. Aku berserah segala galanya kepada-Nya. dan aku tak akan berhenti berusaha. tidak sama sekali!

p/s: life doing mistakes mean everything rather than life doing nothings.

i felt so numb.

tomorrow is my flight. how do i feel? numb. serious. aint no lie.

it is my first time to have Assessment Session for my 2nd stage of interview.

but....

i have no idea at all how the interview will look like.

Ya Allah, help me. murahkan rezeki hamba mu ini. Amin.

11 october 2010

today is july. next is august. then september and after that is october. october? yipppieee!!

my convocation month! i really cant wait for my convocation. seriously. :-)

This year, the convocation bit longer than before and am hoping that we will use the new DU. Please, make it happen God.

yup. 11 october. the last faculty for 14 Convocation.

fellas, cant wait to see u guys.october!

it not easy, but worth it.

Im not good with word.

Well, I’m not born like this, surely I can say, I turn fully private person on july 2009 and it go on until now. So many things had happened. I still remember back than I used to play futsal with my roommates during my matriculation year. Then I proceed to myuniversity life. Ive got my own lappy. aspire 2920. I guess it was a gift from my daddy coz I got myself in, well, I remember also he also made promised before that.

Time fly by. My lappy was my best friend if I got bored in Seroja. Well,if who ever know how seroja look like, u will know how bored it is. Ive

got my friends also. The best. But lappy, he accompanied me during sick and happy.listening songs, tons of games, thousands of movies,uncountable assignments and so on. Jasa mu, takkan ku lupa. My broadband? Oh yes, I ask my dad to buy it for my fyp ehehehe. He help me a lot to google any information that I need.

University life taught you how to live.is it true? Yes, I think. You know why, 50% u learnt how to score an A in a subject. How to get dean lis

ts. How to maintain or raise up ur cgpa. But the other 50% is how u get the goals. How u handle stress. How u handle datelines. How u handle some crazy chick with her little drama. How u handle people that stab behind ur back. How u handle cheaters, free rider and so on. Life is hard.never easy.

How do I survive? Ive got my important people around me. Not forget my family, but my friends also being there for me when im having my hard time.

The ladies, you guys always bring laughter to me.cheerish my day and night. Jokes, study, fooling around, cries, argue is like a habit to us. Dinner together every night is a must. There so many memories till I cant write it down coz im sure if I do, I will never finish. From seroja, we move to Alamanda. Well, one of us go to cempaka but we remain contact with each other and still catching up with each other. How come I can forget a person name Farah Adibah Esa that always make me smile? How come I can forget a person name Nurjannah Arbi that always be there whatever happened to u? how come I can forget a person name Zakirah Taufek that her characters almost look alike me. And how come I can forget a person name Fatimah Atirah Mohamad that always make a scene around us, and the spoilt one? Seriously, you guys really cherish my day.

the ladies

When I moved to Alamanda, ive lot spend time myself with the ladies, but when all of us getting busy for the final year, ive closed to someone which is Siti Amirah Arbi. You are the genius lamb, Capri. At first, u surprised me. Im sure, UPM had changed u a lot, become mature, wiser,and full of wisdom. All my happiness, and sadness I share with u. well, we almost create a scene too back then. Memories. Haha.

the genius lamb apabila bergamba mesti muka merinsak. i wonder y huhu

the besties

At the time being that im grow up and still growing, Sharifah Nadzirah and Siti noorazura also be there for me. Ups and downs like a roller coaster but we still have time with each other. I also get know someone special in my life. Zuraida Sapong. She is a libra like me, and we share the same birthday. How cool is that? It easy to talk to her coz she got me. I can talk to her in our language like screaming and yelling in the car arguing about some men but we not fighting. We can jokes harshly coz we know that aint hurt anybody heart. We hate the same girls coz they annoys us. Hope we not fall to the same guy.*finger cross* I miss u B. am aint lie.

libras

Forgot to mention, I do have best memories too with some of my coursemate. Nurul Amirah, Siti hajar,Siti Khadijah, Naziemah, NurIdayu, and Aimi Mahiriah. In the class, they like my bestfriend. Study together, assignments together, even poret together. Ahaha.

miss V, S and B ngee~~~

So, do u know what is my purpose of life? To be happy.yes.simple isn’t it. But im not gonna answer like that during my interview session if they ask me, surely they not ganna give me a damn job , and ask me to get marry. But its true, I a simple person that enjoy a simple life. Wake up in the morning, having breakfast, then off to work. Lunch and then hi-tea in the evening, and taking my dinner. If I married, I’ll spend my time with my hubby and kids at night.well I still single, not married yet so night is always for my self. But that doesn’t mean I don’t have dreams, goals and ambition ok!

But life is not about happy it self. When u happy, u will sad. That what yin yang concept. Balanced. That what Islam been thaught, kesederhanaan. Kalau kita bersederhana, maka kita tidak akan kecewa. Rite now, im not gonna said im searching myself, but I am creating my self. Cause my life lie in my hand. Everyone have their own path. There are friends of mine become teacher, trainee, doing part time and me? Well, like I said, each of us start to live in reality. Everything is not like before. Changing is good.It is not matter to me as long each of us can be happy and enjoy spending time with loves one.

Ask most people what they want out of life, and the answer’s simple.. to be happy

Maybe it’s this expectation, though,the wanting to be happy..that just keeps us from ever getting there.

Maybe the more we try and will ourselves to states of bliss, the more confused we get.. to the point where we don’t recognize ourselves.

Instead, we just keep smiling.. trying like hell to be the happy people we wish we were. Until eventually it hits us, its been there all along.. not in our dreams or hope.. but in the known.. the comfortable..the familiar.. (Grey,season 6)

lets mumbling~~

its raining outside and im listening to Auburn, The Perfect Two. awwww. ntah tiba tiba rasa nak ber blog. there so many changes n puzzles recently. bachelor degree.check. master.*rolling eyes*. workin. *rolling eyes*.

i still follow the flow rite now. susah maze kali ini. i dont know what should i do and waiting is killing me. and and and i miss my friends! so much! especially you. yes you B!

i miss the way we spent time together sambil makan laksa sarawak dekat amnah and we talk talk and talk bout football, (i'm just listening whenever she start talking bout football) boys, girls that annoys us, makeup, weigh problem..ahh i miss u damn much. how dare u left me alone here. i guess that is routine. u come and go. everybody does. but the friendship, stay forever :-)

doa kan i bjaya n i doakan u bjaya jugak.

owh ya, i miss missgolong also. polah LI jauh2.menyakitkan ati jak.but, it for her own good.i'll wait 3 july.promise.

life change so fast. and now i felt it.its true. im not lying. orang pernah kata everyone goes with their own path. yup.that how i felt. everyone become selfish and i guess that kind of sellfish is a good way coz they grab the chances in front of their face.

so am i. and, waiting is killing me. for real.haih.

separate ways..

everyone seems start to go their own way..

everyone start to separate with each other..

everyone have their own path..faith..

i am gonna miss everything.. everyone..

"never how you've wanted

and thats life..."

help me!!!!! s.o.s!!

fine! got another ticket cause i park the car outside the line. but it just a tiny line.and sure, the next car is still can park.

fine! got fight before final. just nice bf.

fine!recession again! severe recession after paying the ticket.damn! who gonna pay the ticket?

fine! i hit the beam. once in my lifetime. bad karma today.

fine! tomorrows plan at the beach? stillnot sure!

fine! am still have no mood for study! biz law is killing me!

i am in tense!!!

anybody......can u make me calm! i need to breathe!

drama king

ku busy.ku busy. ku busy. macam ku sorang jak busy lam dunio tok.haih.

hidup student tok nang busy.aku start terlampau busy bila start midterm business law. pas ya alu gago ngan presentation law. time ya juak la nak prepare molah presentation untuk industrial relation.dah lah lecturer nya banyak songeh. bolm abis. masok gik individu asg ngan group asg labor economics. kak ya presentation. mid term gik.syobihhhh. nindak pta ku blom siap. bapak nak alah2 ngerepak.

gia lah student.sekali maok busy, makan tengah malam jak jak.nindak kin banyak lemak.

ku malas naip sebenarnya.saja jak,update bha.

ku suka lagu ya nek tok. i kno terlambat ckit, p skati ku mpun.ahahahahahahaha

DrAmA kInG~~~~~

saya busy.

blog dah bersawang.berhabuk.lamak x update eyh.
kamek busy. busy hangout.busy assignments.busy pta due date 22 mac tok.busy presentation.

BANYAK EH! Tensi!!!

tiba tiba jak mek emo.tiba tiba jak sedih xtentu pasal.tiba tiba hati jadi sayu.
pa hal kah?

XTAUK!

maybe banyak gilak keja kot.jadi stress, emosi pun stress so nya kurang stabil.kali lah.xtauk.mood pun pandei berayan bah..

entri boring

minggu tok nang aku boring sikit. dah aku bercerita ngan kawan aku yang suka ngan arsenal ya, paham lah nya kot. jadi weekend tok tek, oleh kerana adik ku xda kat rumah k neman, so plan keluar with my mom.


berbeli dak baju dak handbag lah mek orang tek.


tapi still mood aku belum stabil.still boring tok eyh. xtauk knak.


rasa nak manas jak eyh. semua benda di polah rasa boring.



chemm ni tukkk

a new chapter

it been few days in 2010. and my campus life is began.

wish me all the best coz this is my last sem. pray for my graduation.amin.

my libra for 2010

Year 2010 Career

The last year has probably presented more frustrations than triumphs in the work and money departments for you. Thankfully, it all turns around this year! There will be two eclipses -- one in January and one in July -- that will shake loose the situations you've been dealing with for a while now. In January, an eclipse in your Career House will make for distinct changes at your place of work. At first this change may be a cause for some concern: an increase in responsibilities, for example. Don't worry, you can handle it. You'll have the opportunity to show off your skills in new ways that are more likely to garner attention.


The second eclipse will finish the course set by the first one, and will likely propel you into a new job or a new position of prominence in the old one. Although these developments may come as a surprise to you, in hindsight they will have been a result of events that have been brewing for a while. If you think about where your work life has been the last couple of years, it's obvious that some kind of change was called for, even if it isn't immediately obvious.


As far as actual cash on hand, although it isn't likely there will be any windfalls or lottery wins, there will be a distinct sense of improvement developing gradually over time. June through August will show some distinct improvements.

Year 2010 Romantic

First of all, when it comes to anything scary you might have heard about Saturn being in your sign this year -- don't believe the hype! Yes, there will be a new sense of seriousness about things, but nothing you can't handle. And one of the nice things about this new seriousness is that it may well bring some serious romance into your life!

If you are currently in a committed relationship, June through August will find you involved in a new depth of communication with your partner. Knowing what you both want and finding ways to get there together will be of new importance to both of you. If you find yourself looking for love, much of the year will bring newfound attention. Mars in your House of Love Received will bring surprising attention from both new players and those who may have not expressed an interest before. If you are seeking a mate, this is good news. If you already have one, this could be good news or it could just be awkward.



Neptune will continue to cast a fuzzy shadow over your romantic judgment for much of the year. Being as it is in your Romance Sector, it has undoubtedly made for some interesting circumstances in your love life the last couple of years, and possibly some less-than-wise choices for yourself. But hey, what's a little romance without a little delusion? Although those conditions will continue to be in place through the year, both experience and supporting transits will help you to avoid the worst of the haziness, and you'll still be able to enjoy that Neptune buzz!

so, what yours?

i am totally ready for 2010. this year, im not gonna try to survive in 2010, but try to live it! yeee haaaaaaaa!

my 2009

zero

new life.new obstacles.

new friends.

laugh all night

friend forever

boys sucks

stress

assignments

eat.eat.eat.

bowling.

abg muhd faaiz muzaffar.

internship.

new experience

fever

w980

worm kill me.

so do trojan.

new chapter again.

gossip girl

the city

mythbuster

truth

honesty

return

smile

happy

tension

men from mars

woman from venus

karaoke

pointer

unimas

faaiz

new year.



my life seem upside down through this year.
new hope. new aim. new goals.


2009 will end soon enough.

percintaan abu dan bedah

suatu petang yang mendung macam nak hujan..

bedah : kau x sayang aku ke abg abu?
abu : sayang. kau tahu bukan macam mana perasaan ku pada mu..
bedah : jadi,kenapa kau tak mahu mengahwini ku?
abu : sayangku bedah, kahwin itu tak penting.
bedah : maksudmu abg abu?
abu :xpenting lah.
bedah : jadi kita berkasih sayang ini kenapa??


bedah terus menangis. dan menangis.


bedah : xsangka abg abu sanggup buat begini pada Bedah. Abg abu curi hati bedah, dan kemudian abg abu hancurkan hati bedah. Pas tu, abg abu cantum balik hati bedah dan kemudian hancurkan lagi. remuk hati bedah, abg abu. Apa hati bedah ini puzzle ke apa?




dan kemudian bedah menyambung tangisannya, dan abu. terpinga pinga.




abu: apa yang pecah? apa yang cantum??





p/s: percintaan ini tiada berkaitan dengan yang hidup atau yang mati.sekadar luahan yang hendak dikongsi. mana lah tau, aziz m osman ke, ahmad idham ke nak ambik aku jadi penulis skrip.ehehehe



emo la pulak malam2 macam ini. need some adrenaline rise!