&%$#@!*&_)(+!!

miss s: still contact her?
me: yeah.y?
miss s: u better stop.
miss z: ahahahaha
me: what???



that so childish la friend.please la..

waiting for Sherlock Holmes.

movie that i cant wait.. its Sherlock Holmes.





yeah, i am his fan. it schedule to be playing in the cinema this xmas but i dont know when it is playing in my place. guess, i keep waitin then.

i do admire sherlock holmes since i was a kid back then. hope this movie can bring the fire back on tracks bout holmes, not like the boring in the cartoon.

hope so.

future is coming soon.

tadi lepak makan makan ngan my bff. suddenly.

miss z : r u sure u gonna further master after u graduating?
me : donno.wo bu lui.u?
miss z: donno too.nak practice but it look like stress.still thinking.

*sigh*


bila dah masuk usia 21 ni, banyak yang aku fikirkan semenjak 2 menjak. semua benda serius weh. muskil aku.



dulu aku ada plan.plan hidup la dikatakan. tapi, sekarang, dapat tak kau bayangkan, di mana kau bangun, lepas tu kau berkobar kobar nak buat itu dan ini. banyak sangat rasanya benda atau perkara yang kau nak buat. nak buat itu. nak buat ini.




serius banyak!



sekarang plan aku dah berubah.simple plan.complicated plan.semua plan aku dah berubah.dan otak aku xberhenti nak berpk.




apesal kat aku ni ea?





ini entri serius.harap maaf.

sorry seems to be the hardest word.

im done watching Private Practice for today episode on ntv7 just now and suddenly im thinking bout the word sorry.


for me, i said sorry if only i meant it.. and the reasons to meant it can be a lot. seriously a lot and one of it, is if u in situation fighting some stuff with ur sisters, u said sorry just because u value the relationship more than everything.yeah. i do consider bout that all the time.




in spite all of the 'sorry' things, forgiving is the main priority in why people saying sorry because they want forgiveness. i really take time when i want to forgive someone, but till now, i forgive everyone that have do mistake to me. even it is the cruelest thing ever.i dont know why.



i guess to achieve the ultimate happiness, that why i forgive.beside, i dislike revenge and hateness.



but.but.but.it really hard to myself to say sorry for myself. it is really hardest word to tell myself. in everything that i do. i never say sorry.


eventhough that i failed in exams, or failed in a relationship, or even failed to get a job, or failed my parents hope... i never sorry for my self. instead, i give my own punishment to my self. since i was a little kid till now.sigh.


whats wrong with me??



yet.i still learning and continue learning.

apa yang membezakan kita?

Kita.kamu.sama tapi tak serupa.

Apa yang serupa? Apa yang tak sama?

Spesies? Homo sapiens.

Warna kulit? Putih, gelap, kuning langsat, sawo matang

Rambut? Lurus, ikal mayang, teknik rebonding

Jenis darah? Darah A, O,B, AB

Jadi, apa yang membezakan kita?

Sehingga kita saling memerlukan?

Saling bergaduh?

Saling berebut?

Saling sayang menyanyangi?

Cara kau berfikir. Ya. Itu tak sama. Cara kau pandang sesuatu itu. Ya itu yang membezakan kita. Dugaan datang tanpa henti dan datang dalam bentuk yang berbeza dengan tujuan yang sama tetapi dalam percaturan masa yang berbeza. Ada yang lambat, ada yang cepat. Matang nya engkau di lihat dari segi keputusan yang di buat. Respons yang di beri. Oleh itu, cara kau berfikir sama ada kau seorang yang optimis, pesimis atau apa apa saja, itu lah yang membezakan kita.

Aku boleh lihat gelas yang berisi setengah susu itu, separa penuh, dan kau mungkin lihat separa kosong.

Apa yang mempengaruhi cara kau berfikir ialah ilmu. Ilmu tak pernah habis. Makin kau cari, makin kau telaah, makin banyak ilmu. Makin banyak yang kau tahu. Makin banyak persoalan timbul dalam benak kau. Makin banyak penyelesaian yang kau jumpa. Oleh itu, ilmu itu penting. Ilmu yang membezakan kita.

Jadi, kenapa kau kedekut dengan ilmu kau? Kenapa kau tak boleh share kah?

Kalau kau ada sebiji epal, dan memberi epal itu kepada manusia yang lain, kau akan kehilangan epal itu. Tapi sekiranya kau mengajar 1+4-9x18+2 kau memberi ilmu dan dapat pemahaman. Kan bagus.

Kenapa fikiran kau sungguh cetek. Buka lah mata. Bukalah minda. Mana golongan hebat yang di sarankan oleh kerajaan?

louboutins. my new fav song!

Taking back my love...

You said you changed, But still nothing.

You're still the same, I'm just a part time lover.

And I'm to blame, Should've went away.

But yet I stayed, With a part time lover

.

See, somedays you will love me.

Then you don't, then you do, then you won't.

Then you're here, then you're gone.

I'm alone

.

Now you got me stressing out On the phone.

But it's the last time,

I'm movin' on,

I'm throwing on my Louboutins

.

I'm throwing on my Louboutins...

I left the status,

Changed everything.

No more 818 For the part time lover.

What goes around, comes back around.

And then you get what you deserve.

You part time lover.

See, somedays you will love me.

Then you don't, then you do, then you won't.

Then you're here, then you're gone. I'm alone.

Now you got me stressing out On the phone.

But it's the last time, I'm movin' on,

I'm throwing on my Louboutins

.

I'm throwing on my Louboutins...

Watch this straight bottoms,

And the back of my jeans Watch me go, bye baby.

Don't know what you got until it's gone.

Tellin' lies,

It's over, see...

Watch that benz exit That driveway

.

I'm throwing on my Louboutins...

Watch me walk it out,

Walk it out, walk it out.

Walk this ride above the house.

Walk it out.

Boy, watch me walk it out, walk it out.

damn!

damn!


damn!


damn!


damn!


damn!



argghhhh!



why did she can make it and not me?????



future is coming very soon enough.